2 more days...

i wonder does anyone still drop by...

gd luck to myself and all that are having exams this week :)

mondayyyy

afternoon was hottt as usual and now it's raining... :(

right now am in front of my bluff notes starring at it blankly. at at pg 71 and 25 more pages to go which i have to finish by tonight, latest tomorrow. haihs... is it possible? tmr my schedule will be quite pack lor... noon go treatment, then lunch, then collect specs, then come back study a while before dinner (hopefully) and off to training... adoi... where got time to study tomorrow... and what am i doing now? ramblingsssss aimlessly... just cant seem to find the "feel" to digest all these... how how how...

offtopic: wonder how you are doing. hope everything is fine at your end.

runaway

At this moment, i really wish i could runaway from home. Forever. but leaving behind my beloved grandma :( i really dont know my purpose of coming home everytime. I have no idea what a family is like. I dun remember when was the last time i felt being loved by anyone. Seriously!!! no one have any idea how i'm feeling right now.

And guess what? suddenly i'm feeling much better. you know the reason for it? that's because i managed to logon to PS. it's been days since i last touch it. I remembered someone asked me this before, "don't you have anything else to do which is not computer-related?" But i dont reali remember how did i answer to that cause i dont know how to answer it. But i think i know right now d. Computer is my best friend. It keeps me sane. It accompanies me whenever i'm done. Cause i'm come here to blog whenever i feel lonely. That's where i express all my feelings. A place all by myself. coming home is just like staying in a hotel. I dont go out to the living room. Whenever i did that, i just feel irritated/pissed with the people there. I dont know what has i become into. A stranger to them? well, maybe.

Someday somehow i know i gonna turn into a stranger where no one can recognise me.

P/s: deep down my heart, i dont wish to be that.

sunday nooon

i am so bitter towards someone right now. Come in KPKB there without lending a hand or whatsoever. at that very moment, i jus feel like leaving the convo only. but in order to be polite, i try to hold my temper. pretend as if nothing goes wrong. I jus hate RUDE human beings. RUDE ones!!! dont they have manners? dont they know how to address you? NO.... they'll just OI..... HOI..... THAT KIND OF THING.... ai.. maybe not used to such ppl.

whatever happens now brings back sweet memories during uni times. No matter how rude this girl is during our uni time, i always have a fren there who's always on my side and telling her "please dun be so rude" and " behave yourself". I bet this will never happen in my working place. I couldnt capture what's in their mind. EVerything is so vague. Till sometimes i dun even know myself. I think i reali changed a lot. from an active person into someone who isolates herself.

Awww... cut the crap... still headache and feeling cold (feverish). hopefully tomorrow will be fine and tht i dont need a MC.

Ciaoz folks.

does anyone und how i feel

she totally has no idea jus how busy am i. pissed.

do you agree?

[i aint getting any of that]

tmr's d day. official peak starts i presumed. bless me. come back in one piece before flying off to sg. tat's all folks. gtg bed.

y not euu tell me the title instead?

how many ears mus 1 person have
before he can hear ppl cry?
n how many deaths will it take till he knows
that too many ppl have died?
n how many years can some ppl exist
before they are allowed to be free?
n how many times can a man turn his head
n pretend that he just doesnt see?

PEAK!!!!

i finally tasted it at last.
had no idea how bad it will be
losing my grip

will i be able to go thru it?
all alone by myself?

while was clearing RN, i almost had nervous breakdown. almost puke what i've taken for dinner. jus back from meeting wit senior. can u imagine how bad it was. nahx.. i cant imagine. i dun wan to imagine. 4sections for two days. is it possible? blah... today is enuff, worries c/f to tomorrow n d day after n after............... tata...

happy new year

here i am.. blogging... an hour before year 2009.. i'm supposed to be out but i just cant bring myself to do it. i duno y. i have no idea why am i so depressed lately. oh yeah.. guess wat, it jus came down again... well.. at least it stopped 15min later.. still..yor!!!! here i am clearing RN... n my frens all counting down... tis is my worst year ever!!!! wat is tis wei... ok ler... ai!!!!!!! i'm so speechless... [u noe wat??? i was asking tis fren of mine, the same question (sort of the same meaning but keep rephrasing), what time are u sleeping? OMG!!!! I JUS GOT IGNORED FOR 4TIMES!!! the 4th time i asked her, she said, "nvm, i'm going off d. nitez. happy new year: OMG!!! Can u imagine how i feel??? i duno.] - never blame her for that. here i am trying to get my work done by TONIGHT (31.12.2008) but just couldnt... well i was jus thinking that she maybe busy. she seems to be taking quite sometime to reply me in msn as well. so cant blame her for tat. it's only myself to be blame since i'm the nooby one that needed help from ppl... i cant demand/order any1!!!! it's a so different world here... sometimes i jus hate working life!!!! i just hate everything that i'm going thru right now. has everyone left? i just felt isolated in an island.. far far away from my mainland... in this island all by myself.. anyway happy new year to myself n all :( nitez..

new year eve

first of all, happy new year to all bloggers out there, well basically homo sapiens... all of a sudden, i had tis bitterness feeling.. maybe too many news came at once... like within half an hour.. ald had 5 news??? good or bad it's up to u to judge. the news is as follows:

1. my senior just told me i have to clear RN over the weekend. nvm.... NEXT
2. i got two evaluations to do n need to get it done by 5th.. n i only had one
working day left to do only... wat am i supposed to do???
3. the shittiest (exists kah tis word?) of all.. i'll be going back cameron...
yeah.. WIT HER!!!! sigh.... y la.. y me?? y mus i be the newbie who learn all the
wrong things?
4. got commented by senior.. it wasnt good... u get me, is comment.. not compliment.
sigh... well, she said she'll list down my S&T for future improvements.. hope tat
helps.. i reli wanna do well.. i dun wan to be under-perform....
5. What else??? *tinking tinking* yeah now i remember, do stat audit!!! my god...
hope i'll get it right... i dun wan to be a legend like little ant. :( of course
i dun wanna disappoint the person who taught me s well. n to myself. though it's
easy to many of them, it can be done in a wrong way as well... so pls... get it
right for goodness sake.

sigh.. cant tink of wat to write further...so i'll jus end her atm.. tata.. maybe back later... well, maybe not..

P/S: happy new year, CY. (noe u wont be reading tis, hehe)